It’s Dark because you are trying TOO HARD. Lightly, child. Lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly. Let things HAPPEN and lightly cope with THEM.
So throw away your BAGGAGE and go FORWARD. THERE ARE QUICKSANDS ALL ABOUT YOU—sucking at your feet trying to suck you down into FEAR and SELF PITY and DESPAIR. That is why you must walk so LIGHTLY. Lightly MY DARLING, on tiptoes and no luggage, not even a sponge bag. COMPLETELY UNENCUMBERED.
And from me:
Be kind to yourself. Tred gently. You’ve got this. It’s a journey, not a race. Namaste.